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Torn on the Will/Eupha front.
[I will put the rest of the post under a read more for massive late game spoilers and lenght reasons]
On one hand she's the one major character (aside for Strohl, arguably, but we all know they don't have the balls to do that in a mainstream game, this isn't Catherine or Innocent Sin) for whom a romantic relationship with Will actually makes sense from a writing, theming and lore perspective.
Whereas Hulkenberg is unhealthily obsessed with the concept of royalty (even after her social link has been maxed out, she still has to work on her attitude, especially after Will is revealed to be pretty much the Prince's persona), and whereas Junah doesn't seem to show interest for other tribes probably on the basis that as a nidia her real form would result rather unappealing for most non-nidias, Eupha shares with Will endless curiosity and a fresh outlook on society, that with her being new to everything outside of Virga and him being almost literally a newborn.
Being respectively a mustari and an "elda" they're also both related to the ancient world and looked at as pagans and potential dissidents by the state church, thus being looked at with suspicion wherever they go. It is not a coincidence that her storyline is related to sanctism, just how I don't believe it to be a coincidence that both the seeker and summoner's supreme incarnations (namely the soul hacker and the devil summoner) are related to classic non-Persona Megaten titles.
I also personally find her rather endearing, appreciate her proactivity and like her character design quite a lot, so if I had to choose one character to romance it would probably be her.
However.
On the other hand, in my opinion the major issue with Metaphor (which is otherwise a game I really, really, really love) is the same one as the Persona games': that is, the writers can't decide whether they want to write a character with an estabilished personality or one who works as a blank slate for the player to project themselves on.
(My personal stand on it is that the latter doesn't work very well when the biggest game mechanic is the literal manifestation of a physical incarnation of their inner selves, but what do I know.)
I found this dissonance to be rather distracting while playing several Personas, especially P3 and P5, but when it comes to the dating sim side most games in that series work on the assumption that the player should be free to decide 1) whether to romance a cast member at all and 2) which member of said cast to romance, with the confidant/social link mechanic implemented from P3 on being generally used as the way to choose a love interest (with the only exception being the Persona 2 duology).
While this approach has its problems (with pre-Reload Makoto being unable to have platonic relationships with 99% of the girls he knows, for example, or P4 and P5 having some trouble integrating the presence of a love interest in their story beats), it allows the player a degree of control over the situation, and sometimes even allows for entirely unexpected writing peaks (aka best P4 girl Ai Ebihara and I will not take any criticism on this).
Meanwhile, with Metaphor they went out of their way to make it clear in interviews that there weren't going to be Persona-style romances in the game- which is not a lie, but only in the most technical sense of the word? Because there's the singular one with Eupha, that only happens if you maximize your bond with her.
(Also I think Catherina flirts with you? But at least in the italian localization it kinda comes out of nowhere in the very last bond and also goes nowhere, so there's that).
So, at this point, we have a problem: we have a clearly intended canon romance that is, however, being gatekept behind a social link system and is otherwise not very explored outside of it, while simultaneously being mandatory if you want to 100% the game.
The result ends up being, in my honest opinion, a mixture of the worst Persona has to offer with the romance department (excluding the whole Ken Amada Debackle that we shan't mention anymore): the relationship has pretty much no bearing on the story, the player has little to no control over it short of deciding to skip Eupha's bond altogether (thus removing agency from you), the chemistry between the two characters is sudden and dubious at best due to a lack of setup (adding insult to injury, the main character shows far more emotion during Alonso's social link, and bro isn't even part of the team), Will gets demoted to an entirely passive role in the entire matter since he's not given the option to refuse and even playing dumb will forcibly further the relationship (since the social link mechanic was reworked, there is no way to say the "wrong" thing or reverse/break the link), and Eupha and Edeni develop a sudden inability to take no for an answer or at the very least be more open about their intentions.
(Which I, for the record, consider a mild case of character assassination.)
To make things worse, Eupha is also the second to last companion that will join the group, her bond is locked behind a sidequest, and a couple of her social link episodes are locked behind two chunky skill checks (wisdom and eloquence, if I'm not wrong) that will slow you down a lot if you have been prioritizing the wrong things, thus making the romance aspect appear even more rushed if you for whatever reason got to it later on in the game.
So I'm just left to wonder: why?
There was absolutely no need for this to even be an issue; Persona isn't exactly famous for its flawless romances (just taking P5 into consideration I can count maybe two or three I would salvage more or less unchanged, and I wouldn't even pursue two of those for different reasons), but at least it allowed the player some wiggling room and variety to make up for that.
Even if the writers didn't feel secure in their ability to write a decent romantic subplot spanning the actual story instead of optional bonding, simply adding the option to say no (like in Persona 2) or leaving it implied and/or ambiguously requited (like in Persona 1, where there are a few characters who develop feelings either for the main character or someone else in the team as part of the plot) would have been a much better choice.
This way, the players could have filled in the blanks on their own, coming to their own conclusion as to how their romance resolves later on, thus also avoiding needing to talk about the very real political and social issues behind a mustari becoming queen/the king's lover and also the entire part where Will probably still has to deal with the trauma of pretty much being a fusion of two different entities (listen, I have a lot of Feelings and Opinions about this part of the plot).
Even Catherine, which is a puzzle game with very strong dating sim elements that determine the ending, has various "single" endings, so I'm not entirely sure why they felt the need to add this aspect to a story that according to the devs themselves was about "finding allies" for political and social aim, and not a coming of age story about high schoolers.
I'm just befuddled at this turn of events in what is otherwise a very strong product.
#metaphor spoilers#metaphor refantazio#eupha etoreika#will metaphor refantazio#Smt#It also has just now occurred to me#But Eupha pressures Will into a mustari handshake without telling him what it means from a cultural perspective#Which regardless of Will's own feelings for her is still a major breach of boundaries#Because even if he liked her back it would not automatically mean he would give his consent to a mustari wedding or courting ritual#Or whatever the handshake is#For my peace of mind I have decided to headcanon it as a declaration of onesided loyalty which can be both romantic or platonic#Which fits with both her feelings and his role as the future king
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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier
#xmen#mcu#xmen movies#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous#i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself#in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society#sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM#and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that#NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair#for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY#the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig#i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented#anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik#genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show#more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day#bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days
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#spider man: across the spider verse#spider punk#spider noir#hobie brown#noirpunk#you can understand now why venom!noir occurred to me#skrungly little creacher#that’s a cat right there. a spidery kitten#(he is 6 foot something i write him as 30 and he Has a Gun)#or rather 32… ken im joining u#had a mild case of Blinded by Hearts Upon Seeing Noir in 2018#has returned with a VENGEANCE#he also has big ol eyes they’re just metaphorical#i usually strongly dislike when fandom decides something is non negotiable for a character#the only exception to this is that noir’s favorite color is purple#solely because Purple Lovers are insane over purple. like whole room all clothes every gift insane#that’s a noir thing to do/be i think#cw gun
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3x13 Pinned//8x06 Confessions
Joy
#We're just going to ignore the inconsistent framing and length of these gifs okay#originally made these in original aspect ratio but as i was lazy and just screen recorded with the subtitles on the text was too small#and i cannot be arsed starting over so just cropped them instead#as for length it didn't occur to me that if they were different lengths it would affect flow but again i cant be bothered to start over#not right now anyway its almost 2am#and i was going to sleep at a reasonable time tonight#911 abc#maddie han#maddie buckley#chimney han#howie han#madney#eddie diaz#hot priest#father brian#buddie#not quite a parallel but this has been in my head since i first watched 3x13#also the madney i love you scene is one of my favourites of all time#i love chim saying he'll say it enough for both of them#911 edit#911 gifset
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Shigaraki/Tenko wanting to destroy the false sense of peace All Might and Heroes created
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Shigaraki/Tenko wanting to destroy everything that lead to the existence of that house, which he conceptualizes as the embodiment of rejection and injustice in the world. Be a Hero for the Villains.
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AFO basically literally created that house
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Shigaraki/Tenko helps defeat AFO
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Deku telling him 'you already destroyed it' is... apparently Shigaraki/Tenko having finally gotten rid of the true cause of (his) rejection and injustice? main antagonist's big problem that represents an overarching major issue of the story/in-universe society... solved? (main antagonist's big problem that represents an overarching major issue of the story/in-universe society not actually being the problem he thought it was but now also solved?)
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No longer a need for there to be a Hero for the Villains, Shigaraki/Tenko dies.
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Heroes not to be blamed in the first place. also fuck everyone else and all other 'actual' outcasts I guess.
#i understand that Tenko not having 'supposed' to be rejected doesn't mean the rejection didn't occur for the other League members#but taking that away from Tenko/Shigaraki - leader of the League of Villains - wanting to be their champion#symbolically being their collective grievances and wills condensed into one#taking that away makes the story a lot weaker#GOD what happened#nalslastworkingbraincell#honestly making everything AFO's fault#and making Tenko's main issue being his despair toward himself (created by AFO)#allowed for the (seemingly for now) clean resolution of 'get rid of the both of them' possible#It's AFO's fault? Kill him! Problem solved#Tenko's issue not actually *harm caused by other (non-AFO) people* but instead *harm caused by his self-conceptualization/his own self*?#Tenko's projecting his own self-loathing and anger onto the world and causing trouble for everyone and making his crusade meaningless?#let him die too. Pity but problem solved!#AFO gave him the specific quirk that was Decay because it was such a brutal and deadly quirk that would guarantee rejection#you cannot tell me he could've been fine after manifesting Decay if only AFO wasn't there to tell him he has an innate need to destroy#not after what we've seen of Shinsou and Toga#other 'normal' people would not have let him live a normal life#that *is* also very much a problem that should be addressed#but it was AFO who gave him Decay and Decay was also actually not naturally existing#so everything's fine! no changes for anyone!#all this could've been saved if this was transferred to AFO - AFO also seen as a victim of societal apathy#especially since he was BORN A TRASH RIVER RAT ORPHAN#but he's just a lonely guy who was too unpleasant to form real relationships#so. only real issue Hero Society ever had that needed to be addressed was civilians being too hard on Heroes#gotta love them more and demand less of them#yippee
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Knightfall in Dream Land - Page 6
Meta Knight begins his long fall to Popstar’s surface and passes by some familiar faces on the way down.
#Kirby#Kirby fanart#my art#comic#Meta Knight#Dark Meta Knight#Sailor Dee#Taranza#sorry it took me so long to finish this page but it’s finally done#I hope that the title of the comic makes sense to everyone now#I called it Knightfall in Dream Land because the knight fell into Dream Land lmao#the parts of the comic set in the present are occurring around the time of Return to Dream Land#so the gang hasn’t met Taranza yet and isn’t aware of Floralia’s existence#but since Meta has a long fall to the surface I’d imagine he’d probably crash through Floralia on the way down and pass by the mirror#I tend not to give specific ages/age numbers to Kirby characters in my fanart/fan AU#the first reason for this is that different characters probably age at different rates since they’re different species#and the second reason for this is that I don’t see years between game releases equating to years passing for the characters#I mean just look at Adeleine she’s still a kid in Star Allies even though that was released almost two decades after Crystal Shards lmao#instead of giving characters specific ages I headcanon them as being in certain age ranges#so in the present Kirby Bandee and Sailor are all kids (and Bandee and Sailor are a bit older than Kirby)#I also see characters like Gooey Adeleine and Ribbon as being kids too#while characters like Taranza Susie Magolor Marx and the Mage Sisters are young adults#and characters like Meta Knight Dedede Daroach Captain Vul and Hyness are older adults#but in the parts of the comic set in the past Meta Knight and Dedede are young adults and Taranza is a kid#and Kirby and the Dees are babies#the older spiders shown here with Taranza and Sectonia are OCs of mine who are their mothers#their names are Lady Theraphoza (Taranza’s mom) and Queen Rachnia (Sectonia’s mom)#I’m giving Taranza some backstory since HAL refuses to tell us anything about him except he’s sad about Sectonia lmao#this post has too many tags but maybe I’ll make a separate post with my Spider Lore#Knightfall in Dream Land
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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My status on discord had been "Cat dead, Details later" with the little syringe emoji for like, 6 months, and then the other day I got a DM basically saying "I just wanted to say, I'm so sorry for your loss, the grief of a pet is so real 😕" and I told them "thanks for the condolences, but that is a movie quote, my cat is not actually dead." Then later that night I was telling my dnd group about the silly tee-hee mixup, and FOUR of the SIX people in this chat said something along the lines of "oh my god I thought your cat actually was dead but I was too scared to say anything about it!". Needless to say I am changing my status to a different reanimator quote.
#reanimator#why is my favorite movie not popular enough for everyone to understand my referances :[[[#it legit did not occur to me that no one else had seen this niche horror movie#actually when i first set my status as that my bestfriend DMed me like “BAMBOO IS DEAD??” because he has also not seen reanimator#Bamboo is my currently alive cat#i think i just need to force everyone i know to watch it now
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Happy Birthday, Vincent! Where did all the years go?
For the first time in my life, I looked at the people surrounding me and felt nothing but mirth. Ease. Restful, ambrosian peace. It's shockingly foreign. Warms the chest. Stings the eyes. I hope this feeling lasts forever. I capture every detail, dissecting each millisecond that passes, sense by sense. The air on my skin, and the scraps of sunlight hitting me. The way the room looks, and the looks in their faces, their eyes. The different laughs and conversations, some even praising me, offering good wishes. The sweetness from foods I never would have received, and the smooth scent of a home. One that's been lived in and cared about. I want to remember it. Engrave it somewhere deep and secret, so I can always return and find the same sights, smells and sounds. If I can't have that, then I hope it lasts a little longer, at least.
+ Close-ups!
Yeah. Just a little longer.
#vincenttag#soniasanderstag#amontag#rickytag#nathanieltag#seraphinatag#doctorstrohltag#katyatag#In which we see a rare moment of Strohl's hair being loose#And not gelled to oblivion#We also see some of his height show here. He's taller than Vincent!#I just really love Strohl he's my little baby boo#Katya is growing on me too I love her. She's such a sweetie.#Poor Amon. How do you still manage to get third wheeled in a group of people#Take it one day at a time dude. You got this. Better will come. She's for the nests bro.#Vincent has a weak stomach when it comes to sweets so these are layered citrus cheesecakes instead. Tart!#He loves citrus fruits. Fixing those vitamin deficiencies one lick at a time#You can tell who has a better sweet tooth. The lime cake is even less sweet than the orange one.#Been forever and a half since I drew Sera's cat#She's an old girl now. Sera was only around sixteen when she adopted her.#This might just be the first time I draw Sonia getting through to Vincent.#I didn't place his age anywhere here for a reason... You decide when in the timeline this occurs. There's a few obvious hints though.#If I come back to this I might tweak a couple things#devawrites#ark_systema#singlepagertag
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Girl what did Arthur do in the legends
He got Morgana pregnant with baby Mordred
#arthur pendragon#morgana#morgan le fay#mordred#arthuriana#asks#it has only recently occured to me that there are probably people in the bbc merlin fandom that don't know arthuriana#which is totally fine it had just never occurred to me before bc ive been so fascinated with them for like a decade#it kinda explains why i was always so lost when people are like 'this bbc merlin thing is problematic i cant believe it'#and im sitting there like what this whole shebang starts off with uther killing a guy who's wife he wants to bang#and then merlin uses magic to disguise himself as the dead husband (gorlois) so the wife (igraine) doesnt know the difference#and thats how baby arthur is conceived#like these guys are FUCKED UP lmao#although i guess that isnt the TRUE start of the legends since theres some about baby merlin being the antichrist but they baptised him#so he's fine now. just got sickass magic powers but now he uses them for 'good'#and kid merlin dishing out prophecies to uther's predecessor vortigern to help him build a castle#but arthur's conception is the start of the main shit obvs#good god i infodumped in these tags damn i havent had my arthurian nerd cells activated in a BIT so thanks op#and also sorry to be the bearer of fucked up news to you
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I wish I had any way of knowing whether people have gotten Weirder™ about my name in recent years or if this has been happening behind the scenes the entire time
I've been going by Jay since I was 11. At the time nobody objected to or questioned this, at least not to me; I found out many years later that Jay is supposedly a "boy's name," but nobody ever said 'you can't use that as a nickname, it's a boy's name' and it went completely uncontested by anyone when I switched. Lots of kids announced some manner of name change at the start of a new school year in middle school; it was all normal and fine. My mom and, you know, grandmas and other relatives kept calling me Jessica, which was also fine! I didn't make a big family announcement or correct any relatives on this, I just wanted to differentiate myself from the half dozen other Jessicas in school.
For twenty years!! This has gone on being perfectly normal! My Real Name™ is an increasingly obscure bit of trivia I get to spring on friends who didn't realize I had one, which is always funny (my brother in law didn't believe me and demanded to see my driver's license). My mom and grandmas have largely still called me Jess, and that's also fine! It's nice, even! There's a particular intimacy there of having a name only my mother uses-- but, crucially, I have never asked her not to, or said that I don't like it. And as FAR AS I KNOW, this has all been true and fine for TWENTY YEARS.
My own feelings about it have never changed, and feel, to me, very straightforward: if I tell you that my name is Jay, and you decide that no it isn't, that is a problem. That's the rule. That's literally it. I had a high school teacher who asked on the syllabus for us to write down if we went by something other than our full name, who was nonetheless UNIQUE among all of my teachers from 6th grade onward in always and only ever calling me Jess, even though I signed all my work Jay, all the other teachers called me Jay, he literally asked whether anyone wanted to be called something else and I answered Jay, and I had him for two semesters. I met a work friend of Justin's once who asked upon introduction whether Jay was short for something, and when I told him it was short for Jessica he took it upon himself to call me Jess instead. This isn't me having a problem with any particular iteration of my name, this is just asshole behavior! I told you what my name was and you said 'no it isn't'. The problem here does not seem complex to me?
But within the last [hand wiggle] handful of years I feel like it keeps getting weirder? Apparently my dad and grandma argued about it at my wedding rehearsal-- she, dramatically, insisting 'I don't care, her name is Jessica, I'm going to call her that ;n;' and my dad angrily defensive that no it isn't, I go by Jay, that should be respected. And I'm sitting here listening to my dad relay this in utter bewilderment like. Well dad I love the energy but I have never been bothered at all if grandma calls me Jessica. I have never even once asked her not to or complained to anyone that she does. But also this is the grandma who HAS called me Jay more often than not?? My mom's mom never picked it up, but I was astonished to hear my dad's mom was acting like this was some New Dramatic Change that she Hated and not a thing she's literally already been doing for, again, twenty entire years. Why are you suddenly making it weird! Last weekend Justin's stepmom mentioned seeing my mom at the hospital where mom works, and how she said something like 'yes I'm Jessica's mom-- wait, no, Jay, she hates it when I do that' and I just?? I literally don't, the only problem now is that people who know me won't know who the fuck you're talking about
all of this and I'm just. I am literally just sitting here. why are we inventing problems out of this two decades later. what is going on
#I went by jess on purpose once in a college art class because there was a guy actually named jay#and I was like 'fuck this is why I dropped jessica in the first place' lmao#one time I put 'jay' on the preferred name line on medical intake paperwork and then when the doc was like 'jay?' I was like OH I hate that#oh no doctors Must Only use my paperwork name it turns out lmao#Justin's work friend calling me jess was so ??? you're not my MOM????#harvest moon awl has a 'what should I call you now that we're married' mechanic for I assume Darling or whatever#but one time I had my video game husband call me jess#justin also in real life has Jess Privilages but he doesn't want them because HE has only ever known me as jay#IT'S CONTEXTUAL. IT'S NOT THE NAME IT'S THE CONTEXT. IT'S THE RESPECT OR LACK THEREOF BEHIND WHAT NAME YOU USE#both my parents suddenly overcorrecting is weird but ultimately fine because the intention is clearly good#my grandma suddenly acting like it's a problem sets my teeth on edge. hey. this was never a problem before. what do YOU think this is about.#uhhh not to get. into it but. my dad is also almost definitely projecting baggage onto the situation that's got nothing to do with me#dad at christmas: it's just disrespectful! if someone tells you their name or their pronouns you don't get to decide they're wrong!!#me: I completely agree. not actually relevant to whether mom specifically calls me jess because that is in fact allowed but. I mean.#me: if you hypothetically told YOUR mom you go by something else now she SHOULD just use that instead. you're not wrong. hypothetically.#AAAANYWAY not to tangent on THAT too much#for ME having a nickname was so normal and it's only very abruptly been made weird by others and I'm baffled and annoyed about it#my mom's stepsister I see every handful of years: hi jess-- oh wait your mom said you go by jay now?#me: I've gone by jay since 2001 what is going ON--#I don't think it even occurred to me to wonder about Gender when it was mr hughes 'jess'ing me in high school but in retrospect I wonder#THE THING IS JAY ISN'T A MAN'S NAME TO ME. I MADE IT UP I DIDN'T KNOW IT HAD A GENDER. IT'S A GIRL'S NAME TO ME BECAUSE IT'S MY NAME!!#DON'T BE FUCKING WEIRD!!!#hhhuuaagh#I've talked about all this before but it came up again TWICE at christmas in ways that made me go STOP BEING WEIRD lmao#so it's on my mind again#about me
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Digitalised + coloured + redesigned version of my Suiren and Vaatu sketch from two days ago, as promised!!
Coming up with Suiren’s design was a very long process of trying and failing because after you’ve drawn 9+ different versions of one character, the creativity starts to run a little dry, but I’m actually really proud of this one, she looks absolutely adorable <3
(Also yeah I did mostly just scribble Vaatu’s pattern because who has the energy to draw the all out accurately. Not me, that’s who, I’m chronically tired. People who draw him on the regular have my utmost respect. He’s still a funky little guy though :D)
Bonus, Raava incessantly screaming inside Suiren (and being completely ignored because Suiren is tired of her) while all this is happening:
#and yeah I did say I’d do a fuckass background but all my energy went to figuring out Suiren’s design#plus I suck at backgrounds so.. woe. LoK screenshot be upon ye#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#avatar suiren au#original character#sotrl suiren#vaatu#I don’t really know what to say in these tags lmao#usually I reach the tag limit really really easily but between my previous post and answering that ask I’ve ran out of things to say#someone please indulge me in this au I have Way Too Many Thoughts about it#hmm…#you know. I think people often make different avatar aus because they dislike Korra or think she’s a bad avatar#I don’t. I love Korra. I would kill and die for her#(says the red lotus stan. yes I’m well aware. no need to call me out)#and I think she’s a good avatar who was dealt a shitty hand both in universe and by the show’s production team#I’m making this au BECAUSE I love Korra. if Suiren is the avatar Korra gets to be a normal SWT girl#she’ll get to grow up with her parents. not isolated and degraded all the time for not being perfect. maybe she’d have a sibling or two#and Suiren gets spared her sotrl trauma too. win win for everyone!!#(I return Suiren gets the weight of the world on her shoulders lmao. but it’s fine. 1. she isn’t alone in it. she has her family#2. three quarters of the LoK threats are basically automatically eliminated for her. the RL are her parents. she fuses with Vaatu#and all she has to do to defeat Kuvira is to take her dress off 😁 /hj. basically. she’ll be okay. better than in sotrl at least)#also look. I love Suiren. she’s my dear child who’s been with me since I was 12. of course I wanna make her the main character in everything#and dark avatar Korra AUs have been done countless times before me. Kat’s doing one right now!! I just wanna do something that’s my own#and also I wanna focus less on pain and trauma for once and more on the sheer hilarity of the shenanigans that will occur post-fusion#cause this isn’t Adumbration where Korra lets Raava go and fuses with Vaatu instead. here Suiren’s got both of them at the same time#and they have 10000 years’ worth of grievances to air out. it’s like living with your divorced parents#trust me I would know. except mine aren’t divorced. they’re Worse and everyone wishes they’d just separate#anyway. that aside. Suiren’s not getting any sleep any time soon while those two duke it out
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act 1 solasmancer arc is sooooooo much sexier when headcanoning that they had their first kiss during the redcliffe nightmare future scenario. solas immediately dies and then lavellan returns to the present unable to be normal about him forever <3
#oc: ashara#i dont have the brain power to articulate my point today but#im going to be extremely controversial and say i hc this is the only time (in ashara's worldstate at least)#where he initiates the kiss. bc i think its genuinely a prideful move lol. he sees his own history in the inquisitors dilemma#so he offers them what he would want. reassurance. comfort. lol !#i dont even think he cared much about her (ashara) in act 1 OR the redcliffe future scenario#it was just an impulsive move he could justify bc he knew he was dead immediately after. and also ''past me's problem now'' lmao#anyway. ashara has never had anyone straight up DIE for her before so it REALLY expedites the falling-in-love process#despite him having no awareness of what occured in redcliffe lol.#and then when she thinks shes not making it out of haven during iyhsb she does also think abt kissing him like he did in redcliffe#but decides against it at the last second. because i <3 pain :)
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technically if it's not simmered in the champagne region of france it's a sparkling best boy friend
#you see actually this is an ingeniously relevant caption b/c of the concept of Authentic food tying into the film's main themes re culture#Clearly impeccable lol....anyway here's me using this blog as like a tumblr hosted imgur#also just now in the shower it occurred to me the parallels / overlaps with My Big Fat Greek Wedding. obviously also v different but#so your family & by extension their culture aren't the Normal & your father especially holds on to this distinction#& you don't just want to work at the family business forever & then you meet a nice boy & there's no problem there he's just nice#except then how to reconcile this with your relationship w/your family & your culture & thus also your identity btw....#anyways how about that uhh#elemental#elemental 2023#pixar elemental#ember lumen#wade ripple#fanart#always a time & a half trying to decide how to tag these kinds of titles. but somehow i survive#it's really a testament to the so precisely captured Cuteness of wade's design that it's like; trying to just do a shadow of it justice lol#it's So good. definitely went for the like expressive wobbliness...the wavy smile is just thee perfect detail all thee time. ugh#giving both of them that Flow while also ember is pointier & has the whole luminosity element....the chefs are kissing#love the Relationship when it's like yeah it's easy to make it agonizing when it's like ya both people have fun & like each other & enjoy#being together & find the relationship enriching & motivating...you Are a cute couple / again that the conflict isn't really even like ooh#will the won't they as a question of if they really like each other; & Definitely not a question of [these ppl hate each other actually] lo#like me saying i like romcoms sometimes when it Does mostly mean i'll watch mybigfatgreekwedding 500x in a row. it's on youtube btw#then you watch some random other romcom & it's psychological torture. random xmas romcomdram like gave me a headache fr....#anyways really liked this film really had a great time i'm def gonna see it again soon#i loved both these characters & their relationship & the Elemental manifestation of Culture is really inchtaraesting#plus other metaphorical resonance ppl find...physical disability; queer experiences....#it was also fun b/c their interacting & their arcs w/each other having that mutual Effect & Change from their dynamic was like#that also just feels like both of them / their relationship = my relationship with myself &/or both how i interact w/the world/anyone#definitely always describing myself in ways like ''i never x except for when i do always; readily'' like Crying for sure lol. I'm Both....#probably a bit more wade? within Myself; by this point lol. i feel like maybe i'm the wade w/someone i'm more comfortable around#but that otherwise i probably come across more emberesque. usually. except for when it's the opposite except for when it's not lmao etc!!!!
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Colorpalet writing 25ji's main story : It's really difficult to handle the sensitive topics without making it too triggering/blatant for younger readers. We should avoid mentioning suicide directly.
WxS events :
#pjsk#project sekai#wxs#wonderlandxshowtime#tw suicide#tw sui implied#i was literally skimming through events and like#i'm fucking losing my mind how is this a fucking regular occurance#NOT ONLY THAT BUT THE LAST TWO EVENTS BACK TO BACK HAVE A MAIN CHARACTER IN A PLAY PLAYED BY BAKUNO WHO CONTEMPLATE DROWNING THEMSLEVES#now this isn't me throwing jabs at 25ji or whatever but i find it so funny they censor themselves with the implication of suicide by using#the language of “disappearing” and then WxS comes in and is like “lol how about we tackle on the subject of suicide directly with no#censoring just out of nowhere wouldn't it be funny"#also just saying the pheonix from the rio play also has an honorary place on that list but it's not direct enough for me to put it on there#colorpalet triggering my hyperfixation by throwing wild ass shit in wxs's story and i have to just sit there and vibrate at high frequencie#rui kamishiro#emu otori#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi
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random insane headcanon but i firmly believe albin takes exclusively cold showers.
#like freezing cold. or he adjusts the the knob only the slightest fraction above the coldest#when he was younger he probs just got used to it from lauchpad's student showers#but now he just like. does it. he's miserable abt it btw#he Could be using hot water but at this point it's so routine it doesnt occur to him#a hot water shower wld fix him btw. only for like 12 min but it wld fix him#he'd still be a child celebrity that fell off but that constant crinkle between his brows would relax for 12 min#and he'd come out of the shower slightly more content#until he realizes too late that he's out of clean underwear#or gets a text that he inexplicably has to work overtime at his toilet paper shift tmrw#or spills the hot chocolate sol left in his room onto his towel#then he's back to average albin patheticness levels#^^^^ all that shit still happens btw. he's just already resigned when he steps out of his cold shower#albin pembroke#also full disclosure im like a month behind on naddpod cause of ✨the depression✨#so this thought is completely independent of whatever theyve been doing recently lol#i jusr think albin would take cold showers#lmk if u disagree. pleasepleaseplease engage with me i wanr fandom friends
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